Motherhood and Intellect

In graduate school, I read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida, then I read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida, then I read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida, then I read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida, then I read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida, then I read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Francis Bacon in order to read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Erasmus in order to read Francis Bacon in order to read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Duns Scotus in order to read Erasmus in order to read Francis Bacon in order to read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Thomas Aquinas in order to read Duns Scotus in order to read Erasmus in order to read Francis Bacon in order to read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Augustine of Hippo in order to read Thomas Aquinas in order to read Duns Scotus in order to read Erasmus in order to read Francis Bacon in order to read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Plotinus in order to read Augustine of Hippo in order to read Thomas Aquinas in order to read Duns Scotus in order to read Erasmus in order to read Francis Bacon in order to read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Epicurus in order to read Plotinus in order to read Augustine of Hippo in order to read Thomas Aquinas in order to read

Duns Scotus in order to read Erasmus in order to read Francis Bacon in order to read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Aristotle in order to read Epicurus in order to read Plotinus in order to read Augustine of Hippo in order to read Thomas Aquinas in order to read Duns Scotus in order to read Erasmus in order to read Francis Bacon in order to read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Plato in order to read Aristotle in order to read Epicurus in order to read Plotinus in order to read Augustine of Hippo in order to read Thomas Aquinas in order to read Duns Scotus in order to read Erasmus in order to read Francis Bacon in order to read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; then I read Thales, Parmenides, Empedocles and Heraclitus in order to read Plato in order to read Aristotle in order to read Epicurus in order to read Plotinus in order to read Augustine of Hippo in order to read Thomas Aquinas in order to read Duns Scotus in order to read Erasmus in order to read Francis Bacon in order to read René Descartes in order to read Baruch Spinoza in order to read Immanuel Kant in order to read Georg Hegel in order to read Friedrich Nietzsche in order to read Ludwig Wittgenstein in order to read Martin Heidegger in order to read Jacques Lacan and Jacques Derrida; when I read Heraclitus, I realized I had not misread Derrida: Man had constructed logos and logos had deconstructed man.

The End

Not Quite of Me. Because I then realized I didn’t even have to learn how to read in order to understand Heraclitus — and therefore Derrida. I understood Heraclitus intuitively, by nature. And that’s how reading Derrida taught me to value innate knowledge, and therefore I reasoned I would know more if I got pregnant. So I did.

The Happy Ending